The first doubts

{written about my first date with J!}


For that moment of unexpected joy
I pay the price, o my heart, I pay the price.
For that moment of surprise, stolen from a jealous fate
I bleed in tears, and my stomach hurts…
Mean Justice, mean justice.

You gave me those eyes, those smiles
And I stopped talking and I stopped thinking.
In my head suddenly there was a cloud
Round and white and shiny
Fluffy and happy.

You gave me those lips
That skin to caress and those hands on my hips
And for a moment I stopped asking
I stopped running and I stopped searching
It felt right.

But it was yesterday and it is today.
When you asked me with a smirk
‘so what is wrong with you?’
I honestly thought I had not much to say.